Noise

“Yea though i walk…….”
It follows me.. Yet behind me is only Solitude..
“…….Through the Valley……”
Still there.. I cant See it… but its there…..
“….Of the……………..”
“…Of the..”
“…The…”

The mind cracks.. Concentration breaks..

“…..Shadow of Death….”
A Silent Whisper… Right at my ears… so close..
Tells me…
“…..I Shall Fear No Ev…”
The whisper fades away…
Panic…
There’s Nothing there… Nothing….
No Peace..
What shouldn’t i Fear??
No Silence..
The Voice Gone..

Nothing…

Staring at the blank page of my mind..
Confused..
With what??
Nothing… at…. all………
Then all of a sudden..
Sound…

Flooding my mind..
I try to concentrate…
Nothing…
The sound continues..
And Another
And Another
They make an Orchestra…
Every note different..
Every musician playing a different tune..
The deaf conductor keeps the time..
The ignorant Audience applauds..

Nothing..
But..
Noise…

Noise……
Then …
….
The Small, Silent Whisper reappears…
“…. Evil………….”

May 1, 2011

Another

The End.
But another day, we are wrong
It’s Not.
Its a Beginning,
But of something New
Winter Dies,
Solely for us to feel the birth
of Spring. Simply…

When we think it is the End,
It is the beginning of Another.

Another Moment, Another Second
Another Minute, Hour, Day, Week,
Month, Year…
We Are Alive
Content, Miserable..
Joyous, Mournful…
Passionate, Numb…
We all are alive
Only Some.
Those who look forward to
Another Another.

The cycle goes on and on and…
No one escapes it
One has to Die for the Life
of Another

The End.
But another day, we are wrong
It’s Not.

March 26, 2011

A Little Bit of Life

Sigh, One Looks at Life,
One sees its paradigms But one may Understand it, Or Understand it not, He can change nothing.
We have experienced it,
The ever-thinning thread between Life and Death,
We have all marveled at it,
Because we know,
We don’t hold the blade.
But the situations we face,
Not Chance, Planned,
By HIM,
We know,
We don’t hold the blade,
HE does.
Sorrows and Hate appear,
Suddenly they grasp you,
And maroon you on an isle of Distance,
From the World, the Joy, The Laughter.
Only Depression and Sorrow your companions.
A Matter not of Strength but of Endurance,
One only has to last,
For the Night must give way to the Day.
It is the end but it is not.
The Beginning of new life
But for those who died in Life’s Midst
or
The beginning of new death
For those who didn’t
The choice belongs to us,
The choice that spans a lifetime,
whether long or short
That choice,
Life.

There is laughter one instant, panic the next,

Life

The choices we make, Ours,

We Laugh, We Love.

Death

We Think

We all see it…

March 5, 2011

He Waits

He goes on…
Acting content, but inside he is empty
No one can function as a half
So out of necessity
Out of choice..
He stands there.. paused in time
He Waits

Life continues… yet he does not
Situations change.. but he does not stir
Recalling his promise
His oath
He is willing to let go of time
So… eternally
He Waits

Patiently…
He knows that he will not wait in vain
So he stays..ignoring the passage of time..
He dares not move..
Lest his fears be realized
He knows it will happen…
He must be There
For She Will Come

February 6, 2011

Beautifully Evil

That Smile..
Beautiful Isn’t it?
Yet it cuts a thousand times
Sharp jabs at the conscience
Anger stirs, Depression prevails
It recurs, the disgust..
Beautifully….. Evil

Seeing it..
I mean, her..
Burns the wounds, stops the bleeding,
Causes me to live a little longer,
But with the torture
That Smile

Beautifully Evil

Destroys a friend
Strengthens the hate
Fuels the fire
That smile…

Sends a nail through the hand
Its… Her happiness
Flips the switch
Electrocution
Beautiful….Evil

Beautiful..
That Smile…
Sadly it has to cease.

January 19, 2011

Conflicted

My thoughts are confused
I lose myself in the turmoil of my innermost being
Conflicted
I strive on, but the confusion rampages upon me, fear grips me, I feel like fleeing
So often i have to block out pain
Seldom have I remembered I do not have to fight alone
I try to tough it out
Harming myself, My true self, Slowly my heart becomes stone

Conflicted
My Mind wants what it wants, but my Soul rejects it
With Me… Torn in the middle
Helpless
Helpless… as the two sides tear me apart, bit by bit

I am Angry
But at who? And for what? And from when?
The Voices.. Scream at Me..Beyond Me.
I try to scream back, but my sound is drowned..
I Try and Try.. Again and Again

A prisoner in Myself
I live each day, Inconspicuous
No one can see my inner turmoil
No one can feel my inner pain
I act like my own hero.. Saving the world from Me, MyMind, My Soul… Us

I am out there, and I’m fine
I smile, i laugh, i joke

Then, While alone, it slowly creeps over
The Loneliness, The Pain, on the inside I Burn, yet I try to hold in the smoke

Conflicted
Among myself, its seems no one can win
Because, we all being one, if it hurts me, i know it hurts Them
My Mind,my Soul.. They suffer also
So i must find a way to calm Myself within

August 10, 2010

As I

As I Gaze
Lost in the pools of your eyes
The candles, moonlight, starlight lightly bounce off your skin
You shimmer…..
As I Gaze

As I Look
Amazed by your friendliness
How you get along with one and all
The smile ever on your face
The inner and outer beauty you possess…..
As i Look

As I Talk
With You, About You
Only adoration passes my lips
It is my greatest honour to draw out your smallest smile
To see the beatification of an already beautiful face……
As I Talk

As I Dream
Who else do I see?
The epitome of Beauty in every way
With whom, forever i would want to stay
But lo it can only be….
As I Dream

As I Remember
The Times we spent together
Time stops
From Era to Millennia to Centuries to Decades to Years to Months to Weeks to Days to Hours to Minutes to Seconds
All cease
I Smile……
As I Remember

As I Write
You are inked permanently on the pages of my innermost being
You are forever etched
Forever remembered…..
As I Write

As I End
A Tear wets this page
I now see,
My own Limitations
I couldnt express your wholeness, your beauty, your humanity, You……
But, I End

August 9, 2010