Friend

I call myself your Friend..

But what type of friend am I??
You’ve been there for me in my failures..
Talked me out of stupidity..
Made me the Happy person I am nw..
Yet..
What have I done for you?

What type of friend am I?
You’ve always made me better..
You’ve never harmed me..
Never betrayed me..
Never left me…
Yet..
How have i benefitted you?

In my eyes
I’m better an Enemy, than a Friend..

I’ve never been there for me when You need me,
I may have even been the Problem
I’ve failed to add any value to your life
And even that i can’t keep up too long..

I’ve betrayed my Promises..
I have killed your Trust in me..
I see no reason why I am Missed, or Remembered.
I’m truly Undeserving..
I’m Not Worthy.

But I Have tried.

When you Cried
I wanted to be the shoulder you cried on..
So i stayed quiet..
Fighting back tears.

When you Entered Crisis
I wanted to be the one who Listened
So i Acted not
Though I planned to..

When you Wronged
I wanted to be with you
So I told you nothing
Though I Should’ve.

I’ve erred tremendously..
Even in my Attempts
I have Failed..
But..
I Ask you… I Beg..
Please..
Forgive Me…….. Friend.

October 18,2011